Tuesday, July 10, 2018

Questions For The Future

Some questions are deep and meaningful, while others are simply curious. 

Here are 10 questions for future Lindsay:

1. How old do I look?
2. Am I still playing volleyball?
3. What car do I drive?
4. Where have I traveled?
5. Am I happy?
6. Did I break any more bones?
7. Who contributed the most to my changes?
8. What length is my hair?
9. Did I ever figure out the handstand?
10. Is life any easier?

Life takes us in all different directions, some predictable, others not. Some paths seem more clear than others, but that doesn't mean its wrong to follow murky waters. Where has the water taken you?


Sunday, June 24, 2018

When you

When you:

challenge me
I rise to the occasion.

hurt me
I shut down.

forgive me
I breathe a sigh of relief.

ignore me
I doubt you.

love me
I feel it.

support me
I embrace it.

I lose control.

I hurt.


Wednesday, June 20, 2018

Finding Distance

Some of us are on a chain where our insecurities only let us go as far as we already know is safe. Periodically we may gain a link or two, allowing us to reach a little bit further, to experience new things than before but, this doesn't mean we will ever have the strength to ultimately break free. Outsiders will wonder why doing what was once easy, now seems impossible. It might not feel reasonable to them, or yourself, but that doesn't make it any less real. 


Friday, June 15, 2018


Some days I hold my thoughts near and dear to my heart yet, other days I can't help but let them pour out of me. 

Lately, my thoughts are messy.

I feel messy. 


Monday, May 21, 2018

Outside My Window

The trees sway in a rhythmic choas. The sun glistens high in the evening spring sky. The light bounces sharp off of the newly acquired, but still not hooked up, gas barbeque. The pollen looks heavy, yet floats swiftly through the breeze. I notice a faint film built up on the sliding screen door. Normally I'd be inclined to go clean it, but today, not even the slightest urge comes over me. I rest quietly on the couch, legs intertwined with my husband. He's focused on the tv, and I find my gaze shifting to his face. He barely flinches, and yet he has so many subtle reactions to every passing moment. Eventually he turns and catches me starring. I don't look away. His lips curve, and his dimple shows deeper than ever. He kisses me through the air and turns back to the tv. This man, he is the best thing about me. 

Saturday, May 5, 2018

Not Uncommon

Trust is not uncommonly lost. 

It's when you stop looking for it that you need to start worrying. 


Tuesday, January 30, 2018

My My Love

My My Love by Joshua Radin - This is the song that I walked down the aisle to. There are so many things I love about this song: the rhythm, the acoustics, the lyrics. But, I couldn't tell you why in particular we chose this for my walk down the aisle song other than it just felt right. 

Trust what feels right.

"I've been running too fast to belong to anyone, but then you came along."