Generally speaking most of the stuff that I have posted on here so far has been relatively upbeat and positive. Unfortunately, today will not be following that theme.
Today, I am feeling bad about myself. In fact, this has been going on for approximately 7 days now.
I had my set of 5 nights on this past week, during which I got yelled at and scorned on every single one of those shifts.
Our Sunday league volleyball team only went 1-5 this week.
I weighed myself a couple times over the last couple days and I went from 148.6 to 149.3 to 151.6 lbs. I know, I know, it's just a number, but still, it can hurt.
Yesterday I couldn't manage to get my headstand right. I know I haven't posted my most recent video yet, where I actually complete a successful headstand, but yesterday during my practice I could hardly even get my stance right. My balance was just way out of wack.
This morning when I got up, I thought maybe running might pick my spirits up after the long, crummy week I've had but, sure enough, I had a side stitch within the first two minutes, and Captain literally pulled me the entire time. I only lasted 20 minutes.
Now, don't get me wrong, I know that these are all nothing to fret about in the grand scheme of things. I should be happy that I have a job, glad that we didn't go 0-6, pleased that I'm not up to 155lbs, be impressed that I can even do a headstand, and be satisfied that I at least attempted a run, but for some reason I just can't seem to shake this heavy weight on my shoulders.
I thought with all this beautiful weather we are having lately that I was going to feel so upbeat and positively glowing but it's just not happening. So today, I leave with this......a big, fat, ugh.....and hopefully tomorrow things will turn around.
How are you feeling this week?