I've recently discovered Instagram (veebswatts07) and I cannot seem to help myself once I get going on it. I could scroll forever!
I do notice it has me feeling a little jealous (as social media tends to do) that I'm not one of those people who lives for their work. I see tons of those beachbody coach people on instagram, and although I have no interest in that program, I find myself feeling jealous that they are making money doing simple things that they love to do (ie working out), and would be doing anyway even if they weren't getting paid.
I've talked about this a few times before on the blog, about my feelings of not knowing what to do with my life, and it seems I have not yet overcome these feeling. Is what I am doing enough?
-Work to pay the bills
-Work a job that gives me time to do leisure activities (i.e. a job that I don't have to bring home with me at the end of the day)
-Participate in leisure activities (reading, volleyball, working out, writing)
-Overspend once in a while to do something bold (we may have just recently booked a vacation in mexico)
-Feel guilty for overspending, so pick up more hours at work to pay the bills
What I crave:
-Sharing my passions with more people (I wish I could teach people how to play volleyball, and I wish I had fitness companions to help share my progress)
-Work so that I feel like I accomplished something
-Make others jealous with how much fun I have working (i.e. loooooove what I do)
I'm not trying to say my current lifestyle is a bad one. I've very lucky to have the job that I do, that pays very well, and that gives me time and freedom to still have a life outside of work. I just worry that maybe I'm not fulfilling my full potential. No one knows what their potential is until they keep pushing the boundaries, but fear is a big scary beast, and I just don't feel brave enough yet. And let's be honest, even if I did feel brave enough, I wouldn't know where to start, or which direction to turn.