I have recently lost two very close girl friends and it only took about 10 minutes. No they didn't pass away in some tragic accident (that would be unbearable), but I did lose them nonetheless.
I had two very close girl friends who I have been close with for about the last 5 years. At times we were closer than others, but overall, I had a bond with each of them that I cherished. Sadly, I recently learned that both of those two girlfriends betrayed me in a way that I cannot seem to wrap my head around. They did/said things that were so beyond crossing the line that I can barely stand to think about it.
I am hurt....I am angry...I am embarrassed, frustrated, confused...... I am so many things, and I can barely seem to get any clarity, let alone try to get over it. My hubby is working with me tirelessly to help me overcome my emotional/mental dilemma, but I know myself pretty well, and this will be something that will effect any/all of my future relationships. I will never be the same person I was before these friends hurt me the way that they did.
Maybe it was naïve of me to think that friendships can last forever, but I really thought I had found people who cared for me as much as I for them, and who would prioritize me the same way I would them. I was wrong. I am wrong.
Never underestimate the power of untold stories being told way to late, lapses in judgment that cannot be taken back, or hateful words laced with a simmer of positive intention.